Friday, May 08, 2009


How can a person read a life changing book and not be changed forever by it?

Friday, April 17, 2009

From efiL to Life

Have you ever witnessed a sparrow confuse a mirror with a window? It tries to connect to the one in the mirror, with no luck. It cant understand what's going on. Everything is crystal clear, yet its so confusing that sometimes it hurls itself to its own end.

Have you ever tried to understand yourself? You seem to know the person within, yet, there are times when you look at yourself with your mind's eye and see a stranger look back.

Have you been at a point in your life where you question everything you ever believed in? Where your foundations have shook and left you feeling vulnerable, alone and broken?

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Monday, June 09, 2008


Is it o.k to pretend to be happy when you really aren't? Is it right to hide your true feelings from someone you love? Is it prudent to turn your face away from what's gnawing you inside and tearing your heart apart, instead of facing it and confronting it with its perpetrator?

I wish I knew the answer to these. I am searching desperately, trying hard. Because, if I pretend to be happy when I really am not and if its to someone I love, am I not, in a sense, deceiving that person? If I am hiding my feelings and not facing my fears and not confronting the root cause, am I not being a coward?

Growing up simply adds questions on top of questions. Most of them don't get answered right away, and when they do, after ages, they get lost in that mess of questions on questions on questions. Its now clear to me, why poets and writers glorify the lost world of childhood. When the most trying thing is to peel an orange or catch a butterfly. Where questions are not introspective and mind boggling, but simple and liberating. Why is the sky blue? Why doesn't it hurt when I get my hair cut? How can we speak to someone on a telephone?

I am an adult and I have those stacked up, pancake questions too. Some of them, I wish I had never had the curiosity to question myself. Some of them, though I know are painful, requiring courage to ask, are the only way of freeing the tangles in my mind.

But the question is - do I have the courage?

Tuesday, May 20, 2008


It takes approximately five steps before the first 'uh oh' pops into my head. Another five and it turns verbal! I can already imagine the agony that is going to be my friend for the rest of the day that I wear these high heeled, super cool, brilliant boots! I go through the day, with 'ow ow ooowwww' constantly punctuating my sentences. I literally fantasize about the time that I can go back home and take them off and walk barefoot...aahh..ecstacy!

New shoes? Shoe bites? First time? - answer to all that - NO!!!

Weird, but I do this at least once every two weeks. The pattern never changes, neither do the reactions and the sore feet. Why, why then do I ever wear heels? And almost every woman who has managed to stuff her feet into the traps of a stiletto knows what I am talking about and will vouch for the efficacy of the repeat folly!

Reasons may vary, but what drives me to wear my boots/heels is not at all to look taller (no matter how high my heels are I could never even manage to be as tall as K, forget taller!). Its a very subtle mix of emotions. The way they make me walk like I own the world, not to mention the smart click-click-clicks! I think heels give class to any outfit, be it skirts, trousers, jeans or even salwars.They are like the coriander garnishing to an excellent dish!

Believe me, given the choice between flat pumps and high heels, I would fall head over heels for the pumps! But, every once in a while (read, once in two weeks!) I get this urge to walk down that road, in those shoes, which make me look like I'm levitating a few inches off the ground!

Still, some people (and even I) wonder, why do we ever wear heels? I guess, this is really one of those aesthetic questions (e.g. why do we pluck out hair from our eyebrows?!) which just cannot be answered!!

Thursday, March 08, 2007


I had decided not to write about relationships and their dos and do nots, because, I am still learning and evolving. I am making mistakes and correcting myself. And loving it (and him!) The day I feel that nirvana has finally knocked on my doorstep, I will begin my 'sharing of knowledge' again!

The reason I am back today is because today is Women's Day! It makes me proud that what started off as a sexual strike by the women of Greece to force men to end war is today one of the biggest symbols of the liberation of women. Liberation from the bondage of stereotypical roles, paths laid down by others and set past times of sewing and baking cookies (THANK GOD FOR THAT!!I would have been branded a failure for sure!!)

Anyways, I was searching for some cards to send to my dear girl friends and came across some interesting things!! Pasting two of those here!! Enjoy (and learn!)

The Seven Myths Men Believe about Women

Women are never satisfied
Women are high maintenance
Women want to control men
Women are jealous and possessive
Women are too emotional
Women who appear to be strong and competent don't need to be taken care of
Women want to rob men of their freedom

How to Treat a Girl

1.Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do.

2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out.

3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did. 8.5 If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.

9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...

10. Not all of them eat like birds, alot of them can eat like whales.

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with
their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy.

11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the s**t out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms...that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like s**t, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26. Memorize their god damned birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.

27. Don't marinade the cologne, but smell good.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful.

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, priviledge and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

They are true..really!! I can vouch for almost of them!! I do have reservations about a few! Like, the guy paying all the time..he can if he shares a bank account with the girl! And some similar ones! but yeah, most of them at least skim through the truth, if not tell it blatantly!


Saturday, September 09, 2006


I think I'll stop. Can't bear it anymore!!
No more anything on dos and donts of love! The path is easier to find, when 'you' take the trip!

What inspired me to decide on this??? ---> I yawned when I read the blog, thats what!!!